Do I yet love the will of God?
The mirror tells that still do I fear it
Maybe more than soul reveals
And although fearing it
yet have I feared with increase
the path that leads my own way
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God confronts my image of him
The same Law for Israelites and aliens
Numbers 16:13-16
“The community is to have the same rules for you and for the alien living among you; this is a lasting ordinance for the generations to com. You and the alien shall be the same fefore the Lord: the same laws and regulations will apply both to you and to the alien living among you.”
This raises certain questions of course. How long would the alien have to become acquainted with all the unfamiliar laws before he was expected to abide by them? It is comforting to note that God makes provision in Num 15:22 for “unintentional sins.” I am sure a newcomer to the community would be needing this grace frequently. It seems to be the defiant sinner that God is chiefly concerned about. He instructs them to cut him off from his people (15:30). At least it’s not stoning…oh, wait a minute…here’s a guy in 15:32 caught gathering wood on the Sabbath. They’re not sure what to do with him so they keep him in custody until he can be brought before the whole assembly. Obviously this is a very public offense and a public statement must be made. At least they decide to ask Moses about it. And Moses asks God. God says they must stone him…and they do, outside the camp.
Woah, our evangelical mind reels with this…wants to cover it up from all our new converts out there, from the world we are trying to “evangelize”. We explain it by relegating this period of “law” to the old testament and something that has been done away with by Christ’s act of grace that reconciled us back to God at his own expense. Nice and tidy…dismisses us from having to wrestle with difficult questions. I think that’s too simple. I think we have to get back to wrestling with understanding difficult portions of the Torah with the new lens of Christ’s yoke as the 1st century church began to do…something which got interrupted by the democratization of Christianity by a profane gentile Roman society.
Some questions that come to my mind about this passage of stoning…
- Should we assume that this was clearly an act of defiance to belittle God’s requirement for Sabbath?
- Do we trust that God based his decision by a discerning of his heart…meaning, if this had been an unintentional violation, would God not have spared him?
- What were the implications of letting this small act of work slide? I mean, if this declaration of Sabbath is meant to be a gift to us to invite us into the “rest” of God, shouldn’t it be voluntary? Shouldn’t there be tolerance and grace for those that haven’t learned how to slow down – like an active 3 year old who is too wound up to settle down for his nap? Or do we need to look at the Sabbath more as the symbol of marriage covenant between God and us that is so precious to God that He will fiercely defend it?
- Do we come at this story with a preconception of the deep commitment of God’s love or of an angry God that is fed up with people and has lost patience with their petty insolence? I think there is no question that we will read into scripture what we already perceive about God. If I believe that Christ was the perfect representation, a direct embodiment, of the love and heart of God, how can I make sense of this through that lens?
- Was there grief or anguish in the heart of God with this judgment or was he the “immovable mover” as western theologians have called him?
- If I read this story with the advice of Theresa of Avila and put myself into this story as a character, perhaps the main antagonist, how can I resonate with it on a deeper emotional level? What questions will I ask of God in this place? God, would you require my life if I loved you but made a mistake and acted out of anxiety by working on the Sabbath? Would you consider the attitude of my heart?
All these details affect the way we engage with a story like this on an emotional level. The fact that we don’t get a lot of this background when we read various accounts of the “Old Testament” means we have to fill in a lot of missing pieces through our study of scripture and through our experience of “the Father” to help us begin to picture the heart and intent working behind the scenes. It is extremely dangerous to pick out one event that seems to describe the anger of God, with all it’s brevity of detail, and try to build a picture of the heart and character of God from that. Remember that God is described as being slow to anger, rich in mercy, full of compassion…if I believe he can never contradict himself or be inconsistent, then how does this belief affect my reading of this story? Does it change the questions I ask? Does it change the way I imagine myself in this story? Does it give me the courage to ask God directly why He had to do this…
For me I feel this journey to wrestle with the harsh depictions of God’s wrath in the old Testament is a crucial exercise for confronting the broken image of a hard, critical, disappointed God that haunts much of my history of relationship with God. I must confront this image depicted by our forefathers like Jonathan Edwards “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God.” He read these passages with a broken lens along with many others in the reformation and the great awakening in the US. Though there was much revelation in their teachings, this image of an Angry God must be destroyed…it has driven me away from His presence to sin and distraction far too long. It has corrupted and distorted my discernment of God’s heart countless times. How many times he has spoken to me or come to me in ways that are opposite to my fears. And yet still they persist, like oil rising to cover the surface of the water, from somewhere deep within. These emotional images and experiences through childhood that shape our understanding of God are quite impossible for us to change. Only God can heal them.
I thank God for the discussion series i’ve been listening to between Brad Jersak, S.J. Hill and Russ Hewett. They are a great help to me in confronting my broken image of God and helping me to reach out in trust and confidence to a God who delights in me.
http://www.enjoyinggodpodcast.com/
Karina smells good
I hear momma holler down the stairs as we come in from playing outside,”come and have a bath karina, you need to clean your bum.”
Immediately I hear Karina answer,”it smells really good.”
names of Torah books
Genesis = B’Reyshith “in the beginning”
Exedos = Shemoth “the names”
Leviticus = WaYiqra “the Lord called out”
Numbers = BaMidbar “in the wilderness”
Deutoronomy = Devarim “These are the words”
alternate version:
- Bereishith (In the beginning…) (Genesis)
- Shemoth (The names…) (Exodus)
- Vayiqra (And He called…) (Leviticus)
- Bamidbar (In the wilderness…) (Numbers)
- Devarim (The words…) (Deuteronomy)
In Hebrew the names of the first five books of scripture, the Torah, are named after the first words written in each book. When they recite the names of the first five books of the Torah it is not simply a dry list of names but would sound something like:
In the beginning these are the names the Lord called out in the wilderness and these are His words.
Quotes about Art
Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.
C. S. Lewis
C. S. Lewis
Quotes about Justice
In the absence of justice, what is sovereignty but organized robbery?
Saint Augustine
I have always found that mercy bears richer fruits than strict justice.
Abraham Lincoln
The hope of a secure and livable world lies with disciplined nonconformists who are dedicated to justice, peace and brotherhood.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
In matters of truth and justice, there is no difference between large and small problems, for issues concerning the treatment of people are all the same.
Albert Einstein
All the great things are simple, and many can be expressed in a single word: freedom, justice, honor, duty, mercy, hope.
Winston Churchill
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Thomas Paine
Bill Cosby
James A. Baldwin
Living in Spiritual Obsurity
excerpt from Oswald Chamber, May 1st – Link
Faith – Not Emotion
We walk by faith, not by sight —2 Corinthians 5:7
For a while, we are fully aware of God’s concern for us. But then, when God begins to use us in His work, we begin to take on a pitiful look and talk only of our trials and difficulties. And all the while God is trying to make us do our work as hidden people who are not in the spotlight. None of us would be hidden spiritually if we could help it. Can we do our work when it seems that God has sealed up heaven? Some of us always want to be brightly illuminated saints with golden halos and with the continual glow of inspiration, and to have other saints of God dealing with us all the time. A self-assured saint is of no value to God. He is abnormal, unfit for daily life, and completely unlike God. We are here, not as immature angels, but as men and women, to do the work of this world. And we are to do it with an infinitely greater power to withstand the struggle because we have been born from above.
If we continually try to bring back those exceptional moments of inspiration, it is a sign that it is not God we want. We are becoming obsessed with the moments when God did come and speak with us, and we are insisting that He do it again. But what God wants us to do is to “walk by faith.†How many of us have set ourselves aside as if to say, “I cannot do anything else until God appears to me� He will never do it. We will have to get up on our own, without any inspiration and without any sudden touch from God. Then comes our surprise and we find ourselves exclaiming, “Why, He was there all the time, and I never knew it!†Never live for those exceptional moments— they are surprises. God will give us His touches of inspiration only when He sees that we are not in danger of being led away by them. We must never consider our moments of inspiration as the standard way of life— our work is our standard.
The older English version says, “None of us would be obscure spiritually if we could help it.” The part that talks about striving to recreate those rare moments of inspiration reminds me of some of the seasons in the Vineyard where God’s spirit was being poured out and Gary was trying to navigate and steer the church through the pitfalls of human nature…the addiction to spiritual infatuation and euphoria rather than faith in God shown through obedience. Anything other than obedience, no matter how dry and tasteless, only leads to spiritual death and brings no Glory to God in the end. If we are to carry any obsession it must be an unwavering desire to bring Glory to God no matter the personal cost. In order to survive the cost we must be convinced that this will result in great joy to our Father and his kingdom if we will see it through. That joy will meet us in our journey in surprising ways if we do not give up or lose hope.
On the Way to Being an Absentee Nation
an excerpt from an article about a concerning trend:
(America is drunk….New data reveals that one in every six Americans downs eight mixed drinks within a few hours, four times a month.)
Think about that: A significant portion of our population wants to not be present for significant portions of every single week.
This is what is happening. It is critical we determine why it is happening.My theory is that Americans are on a flight from reality. Faced with painful facts—including the precarious state of the economy, the gathering storm represented by militant Muslims, in general, and Iran, in particular, the crumbling state of marriage in this country, the fact that our borders are being overrun, and the fact that our health care insurance system is in shambles (to name just a smattering of the troubles we desperately need to address)—we as a nation are drinking, drugging, gambling, smoking, Facebooking, YouTubing, Marijuaning, Kardashianing, Adderalling, Bono-ing (as in thinking of Chaz’s sad flight from reality as good), Prozacking, Twittering, and Sexting ourselves into oblivion.
The fact that we are doing this as a culture is the single most ominous psychological trend we have ever faced. I am not exaggerating.
Unchecked, it will literally create an absentee nation, unable to summon real vision to confront real threats, unable to summon real courage to defeat real enemies, unable to buckle down and take the tough measures necessary to restore real economic stability, unable to tell our friends that we will defend them—if necessary, to the death.
Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/opinion/2012/01/14/america-is-drunk/#ixzz1je1VDfCQ
Teeth of Wisdom
I hope this doesn’t prove to be a sign of senility to come but I had my last 2 remaining upper wisdom teeth removed yesterday. The good news was that they got all the root tips out after them breaking off on the right tooth. the bad news was that they broke off in the first place after an interminably long tug of war with that tooth. It didn’t want to give up and leave. They said it was a fascinating tooth in the end…that it had an unusual 4th root with the two center roots twisted around each other like a candy cane. Must have been where all my creative ideas come from. Well that other tooth saw what a big fight his buddy put up to no avail and decided to let go without much fuss…came out whole and clean. Now I’ve just got to heal and deal with this foul taste in my mouth. Tastes like death and decay.
Very glad to have this done. One of those things that hangs over me to check off the list. Thank you God for being with me through the small victories and for such a sympathetic wife who cares for me so well. She wouldn’t let me drive myself home and I think it was wise…even though we all had to endure a ride with a tired Karina screaming in distress over some bereft toy. It’s been a peaceful day today and so appreciated.