We got hit with 2 very difficult hurdles since we returned to BC from Auntie Marion’s funeral in Oregon. The first was that we picked up the flu on our visit to Oregon and my wife and 3 of my kids all have had fevers and sleepless nights since then (5 days)…that alone makes it seem as though the sky is caving in sometimes. Then we heard from our realtor that the financing for the buyer of our house fell through and he couldn’t get the banks to lend him the money (apparently they found something on his record about negligence with child support payments). With all the efforts involved with house showings it is a discouraging blow. I feel God has made us aware again of the spiritual battle that surrounds many of our activities and we feel that this move is a significant step of faith for us…especially me. I feel like God has assured me that he is in control and his help his coming but our faith is being tested…with his grace it may also be strengthened. The one encouraging factor that I hold on to is that for this much resistance to our steps of faith to occur, there must be something significant on the other side waiting for us and we will continue to persevere.
edit: I can see from previous posts that i’m repeating myself here a bit…a sign of the mental state of delirium i’m in with sleep loss. Ah, time to have a bit of a laugh at ourselves.
God has a plan and we must not lose hope or give in to despair even though, as Kendra said, “this has been the hardest year of my life.” In many ways I feel that this seems to parallel the birthing process and we are in the throes of birth pains where uncertainties tend to creep into the mind, i.e. “will it ever come, will things really change?” But God is faithful, has always been faithful, and we will not give way to doubt.